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[thenorthener2050]

yeah

i looked for her for 30 years

so i was browsing porn one day casually

and got a popup of some live webcam show

and yeah

there she was

that didnt make daddy proud

i check it from time to time

recently she said

"i dont have any talent whatsoever"

that didnt make daddy proud

i mean ive met people from all walks of life

serial killers bankrobbers gangbangers

but to figure kirin was one of them

no, i didnt

i figured shed be a genious

but her only talent is spreading her legs

really, i have no will to live anymore

ive been broken and taken myself up again

but i have no pride anymore

this is for real

i have no spark

i dreamed of her life

of what shed turn into

since the 1990s!

and now this?

if you didnt know

its not teen girls who commit suicide the most

its middle aged men

thats me

this is the apex of nothingness

im at the point of no return

but its good in one way

i returned to my childhood music

nine inch nails - the fragile

i just want to scream at her

GET YOUR FUCKING LIFE TOGETHER

GET A JOB

GET AN EDUCATION

GET A FUCKING HOBBY

MAKE DADDY PROUD

but she doesnt listen

she has infinite cash

infinite freaks drooling over her

infinite stupidity

ive been #nofap since 2022

when i heard about it on twitter

i fap like once a month if even that

if i hadnt found her

id still been thinking of what

an amazing person she must be

i actually wrote a cosmic poem

with a girl i met then at a cafe

we were both 11

she called herself bella

bella pomodora

i even played computer games with her without knowing

she said she was a guy and called herself silence[MAF]

only heard her speak once

everyone else had me on /ignore

shes a cop nowadays

so thats some respect

but i wonder what she thinks about her daughter

she probably gave the baby away

and maybe fantasizes about

what an amazing person she is

just like i did

kirins not even white trash

shes just trash through and through

shit in shit out

anal fisting

eating poo

she does it all on her show

maybe maria thats her real name yeah

thinks about the "mistake" we did together

yeah shes a mistake alright

and then i found my second daugther

shes also called bella

bella fuchsia

on tiktok

strutting her stuff

shes 15

if she was living in my house

i would beat her up

seriously

she gets donations all the time

buys clothes for the weeks fashion

shows her cleavage

bends over to show her ass

with less and less clothing all the time

yeah valerie solanas would roll over in her grave

if she found out the average work time

nowadays is 10 seconds a day

1 hour work a year

ok

this felt better to write

got some shit out

but im infinite

now its just infinite sadness

had VCPTSD for 9 hours today

had a snack

went on the comp

got tired after 10 minutes

had another snack

got tired yet again

so food doesnt work

my stomache is growing exponentially

nothing helps

really nothing

ive tried it all

i get forced into 400mg

cisordinol every other week

it ravishes me in infinite ways